"I used to just worship the guys I liked from afar."
The first time I fell in love was when I was in my first
year at middle school. He was funnier than he was handsome. But,
I was so shy that I couldn't profess my feelings for him. I just
admired him from a distance. I joined the art club in middle school
and was quite the quiet type. I got a boyfriend when I reached the
third year of middle school but this guy was my complete opposite.
I was the studious type but my boyfriend was a rebellious delinquent.
He was so menacing that I was too afraid to talk to him. But after
I did, I found that he was unexpectedly gentle. I found him intriguing
and I guess I slowly grew to like him. One day, when my entire family
had left the house, he came over to hang out and that's when I had
my first sexual experience. I suppose that's how it usually goes.
"While filming, I developed food poisoning. I didn't
know what to do. It was my debut movie."
I guess other girls might say the same thing but I thought,
"there's no way I'll ever be a porn star!" But for some
reason I interviewed and the next thing I knew, I was done with
my first film. We took a trip to film the first movie. The day we
arrived I got sick off of some shrimp that I ate. But I couldn't
go home so I just took some medicine and went through with it. Maybe
that's why I didn't feel so nervous or embarrassed. Contrary to
that though, I was nervous during my second film. I still feel a
little embarrassed during shoots, even now. I can't watch my own
videos. It's not because I don't like the sexual situations. I just
don't like the way my figure moves on screen. I know people tell
me that's crazy but it's true.
"School was a time when I was diligent and studious.
After graduating, it was playtime."
I gave it my all and progressed through school.
Since I liked science and math I followed the special science curriculum
at my school. During my three years of high school, I didn't hang
out at all. All of my friends loved studying. I did my best to know
all the right answers. Then after graduating, I entered junior college
and felt so nai
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